The challenges of blogging

Today...I am linking up with Mama's Losin It Blog, Writer's Workshop

I really did start blogging a million years ago....ok...not a million but back in 1999.

I don't believe there were blogs back then...I don't know but I did write...alot!

I started a website called One Womans Journey.  I loved it.

I would write about anything that was on my mind...which was the death of my 1st husband, the death of my son....and how I was going to live thru it.  Also, it was about Sophie, my daughter...who at the time...was my hero because she was the only one that kept me alive everyday.  Because there were days...I didn't think I would survive and many days I really tried to figure out how to make it stop.

I really would tell myself that Sophie would be better off without me because I was such a mess.  She was a baby....anyone would take her.  Then I would think about my husband, her dad.  I knew if I left.....no one would tell her how much I loved him.....how much he loved her....and just how much he loved me.  I knew that I had to stay here....to make sure she knew all of this.

She is 13 1/3 now and I am remarried and I have a 5 year old son.  I did survive....not unscathed tho but survived I did.  If you ever meet my daughter you will be amazed at how amazing she is...in spite of being raise by me.

So, I started blogging again really on Facebook 2 years ago.  I would type out every thought that came into my head on Facebook as a post.  I thought I was so very clever.  It took me a while to figure out that it was going to be really hard to get my posts back so that they were all together.

Quandary.

So, one of my Facebook friends started a blog and it was a light bulb for me!

What to write???  And a title??

I came up with this one...The days and nights of a very busy Mom.  It describes me.  I have children that are bad sleepers...they get it from me.  So, sometimes the nights are as busy as the days.

Sometimes tho....what do I write about?  I have found myself looking on blog suggestion websites for something to write about.  Never to find anything that interests me.

Usually I look at my day, my kids, my family....the loss of a shoe  LOL

I have started a blog one way and it ended up another and I had to change the title.

I do like lists.  These are very therapeutic for me...because I don't know where they are going to go but I always feel better when I am done.  Now, the having to come up with "a 50 summer bucket list" was hard!  I cheated a little but, I listed 50.  I read my daughter-in-laws and laughed when she didn't get to 50...so, did a lot of others.

To me....blogging is my own story.  My own personal therapist...with an audience.  A scrapbook of my daily life.  It tells me what happened, what my kids are up to, things that are currently annoying and I post photos too  :)  I write about the good, the bad and the stupid.

I wish I had a bigger audience but honestly...I write for me.  I print it out in book form and place it with my scrapbooks.  Maybe one day when I am gone...one of my kids will read it and say...wow, it's amazing we survived at all.....that woman was a wack job!  Or they will say.......She was a good Mom.  Or maybe they will never, ever read and that's ok too.  Because I do and today...you did.

And everyday I am glad I have a place to express myself, to see myself....and to laugh at the funny things that happen in life.

The other day I also started another blog.

I love to scrapbook....LOVE IT!

I am a storyteller and I teach scrapbooking.  So, while I am waiting for my next teaching job....I thought hey...why not teach online.

So, if you are interested....here it is.    How to scrap your life

Now that site....is a challenge.