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Wednesday, October 12, 2011

3 days home with Nash

The boy has been home sick with the stomach flu.  Never a good thing.

The 1st day was awful...lots of barfing, fever, and stress on me.  Children are cranky when they don't feel good.  And I was stressed out from having my foot hurt for now........weeks.

I do suffer from anxiety.  I know...shocking isn't it  LOL

Anyway....after one too many times of Nash not listening to me and slamming the door to his room.  I had had enough.  You would think I learned form last time we went thru this.............and Nash ended up with a cut over his eye from being behind the door when I opened it...hard.

So, this time...after he slammed the door...I waited until I heard the plop on the bed before I slammed open the door.  Now, we have a lovely hole in the wall from the door knob.  I guess I am slow learner...but it did feel good to release the emotion on the door.  Guess Nash is like his Mommy.


I hate Phineas & Ferb!

I am ready for Nash to go back to school.

I thought he was ready yesterday afternoon...then he barfed all over the trampoline.  Maybe jumping was not a good idea.  But then....an hour later his fever spiked again.  So, no trampoline today.

I did have to take him to WalMart with me this morning.  It was good to get out of the house.  I think he is better and can probably go back to school tomorrow.  He looks better.  He is a such a white boy that when he gets sick....OMG!  He really looks awful!

So, now we are watching Phineas & Ferb while I type away and work on a few online jobs.  Then I told him we will get the Halloween decorations put up.

I have enjoyed having Nash home...once he accepted that he was sick.  But, I am SO ready for him to go back to school!


Monday, October 3, 2011

volunteering

I am a volunteer.  I have been for years.  I believe in giving of yourself to aid and benefit others.  I believe that no matter what....if you breathe...you should help out your fellow man.

I was not raised this way.  My parents didn't give or do anything for anyone without expecting something in return.  I was not raised to send a thank you card, to ask for anything or expect anything in return.  I was not raised to vote or to care about my fellowman.  It was all for one...

My Granny was a volunteer.  I think most people in her generation were.  You helped your neighbor out and they helped you out.  You joined groups for social or other reasons...you helped make it run.  You did for your church and if you needed it...they helped you in return.

I truly believe in being a volunteer.  I am not tooting my own horn....I just believe everyone should pull their own weight.  If I smile at you.....I like to get a smile right back.  If I don't...well, maybe you are having a bad day and that smile brings a smile to you later.....great.  And if it doesn't....it made me feel good anyway.

Same with volunteering.  It makes me feel good.

If asked to do something I just about always say yes.

I have been screwed over twice in the volunteer world.  Both times in the same type of arena.  The first time was shame on you.....Babe Ruth Baseball.  This one was shame on me for trusting someone I didn't know very well and thinking all organizations work and think a like.  You all know who it is....

I learned a lot from this experience.  I will never help out in the world of sports again.  And after this year....Nash will never play soccer again.  God help me!

Yes, I am bitter and angry.  Mainly at myself.  I saw it coming but I could not believe it.  I really could not fathom it.  People act like that???

I have told Sophie many times...when someone tells you who they are....believe them.

I did not believe them.  

And after it is done....I still can't wrap my brain around it.  But, I will own it.  I will learn from it.  Because that is why mistakes are made....so, that we learn from them.

And I am telling you this story so that you may learn from my mistake.

Not everyone thinks the same.  When you ask for help....look into their eyes and see if they are sincere.  If someone tells you someone or some group has a particular history.....take it as gospel and listen.  Don't assume they have changed.

I am going to go back to my regular area of volunteering.  The school that Nash attends and Sophie has graduated from, Sonora Elementary.

And a funny thing....they told me who they were in the beginning when Sophie was in Kindergarten.  I believed them and walked away.   But, I still wanted to be a part of the PTO and my children's school.  So, I waited until the players changed and slowly made it into an organization that I am proud to be a part of.

Support Sonora School.  A PTO.  A lovely group of team players.  All willing to help each other out.  Thank you for being there and standing by while I learned this lesson.