a list of what is on my mind

"Hi, my name is Nash.  When I grow up I want to be a policeman"

1. today is June 1st
2. tomorrow is not  LOL
3. I do think I am funny
4. Nash had his kindergarten graduation today
5. of sorts
6. he is not graduating
7. he is repeating.
8. most of the boys in his class are already over 6
9. Nash won't be 6 until September
10. I knew going into kindergarten that he might repeat
11. it wasn't a surprise
12. he doesn't want to go to 1st grade anyway
13. I am so tired
14. this is one hell of a week
15. lots to end this week
16. and something to begin
17. but, I am not going to talk about that
18. and you....you know what that is
19. don't pretend you don't know
20. you do
21. I was out the door and 7:40am this morning and didn't get back from the day until 6:30
22. several clients
23. children to shuffle
24. Starbucks to contribute to
25. roads to drive
26. people to see
27. mmmmm....pizza @ Round Table!
28. it was way yummy!
29. then I ran into someone I have not seen in many, many moons!
30. my nephew, Todd Holley
31. wow....he was a crazy kid....and a crazy man now!
32. he had the nicest things to say.....
33. he was always adorable!
34. had to put a blanket back on our bed
35. its frikkin' cold!
36. and did you remember me saying it was June 1st!
37. I am tired...tomorrow I am off....and plan to relax!

kindergarten is not always easy

My little boy Nash......

When I signed him up last year for kindergarten, I knew it was a 50/50 shot that he would make it.

I have been holding my breathe since he started.  His birthday is September 7th and he was still 4 when school started.

Boys do NOT mature as fast as girls.

Nash is very smart....VERY!  And Nash is very stubborn....VERY!

I used to blame Sophie's stubbornness on her Daddy.  Now that Nash is so much like his sister...and the common denominator is me.

I must take the stubborn blame  :)

At the first report card....his teacher told me that Nash was smart but, having fine motor skill issues but not to worry.  It was because he was young and they would come.

Then in January, Nash's teacher talked to me after I worked in class about holding Nash back for the next year.  I knew immediately she was right.

But, Lance is a Dad.  He did not see what I saw and the teacher saw.  He just saw that people would know.

Nash has been having problems lately.

He cries every morning about going to school.  Has so many excuses as to why he should NOT go.

I have threatened him with the police, his former daycare lady and going to prison and never seeing his Mommy again.

I hate this!

Today I talked to his teacher about the crying.

After a long talk...I knew it was time to just take the pressure off this little boy and me.

I am holding Nash back next year.  He will repeat Kindergarten and stay with his teacher.

This was so very hard to tell Lance....but, when I did...thru my tears.....he knew it was the best thing.

I talked to Nash about this.  I think it took the pressure off of him...he is looking forward to NOT going to 1st grade but to kindergarten.

Parenting is hard.  Making the right decisions is DAMNED hard!  I feel like this is the right decision but I worry about the future.

I have to go with what is good for him now and worry about the future when I get there.

I think will be good.  Who doesn't have the best memories of kindergarten...now he will get a double dose of them  :)