I have had a lot to say....but didn't.
I have had a lot of emotions about all that has transpired....but, trying to not deal with it so that I can deal with others.
I have been busy.
Or kept myself that way.
I have been sick.
Got the cooties.
Then it was Mother's Day.
It was a great day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Seems like I am running down a hill to a finish line.
School is almost over.
Sophie will move on to high school...we all know how I feel about that!
Nash will stay in Kindergarten. Yes, its for the best that he stays back.
But..........it hurts....my ego.
I think if I DIDN'T have to do Kindergarten again...I would be fine. I am ready for a longer day of him at school. Yes....I said it. I need a longer day of freedom.
The days are speeding past now.
Blurring into each other.
Time is going so fast.
I really want to get off this ride for a couple of days.
Make it stop.
Make Sophie stop growing up.
Make Nash stop growing up.
Give me more time.
I feel like I am running...so fast to keep up with them.
it's not fast enough.
I am getting left behind.
I think that's it.
I feel left....forgotten...........missed.
How can I love them so much and let them go?
I look at myself....no one cared that I grew up, moved on.................
no one even thought to think about missing me.
I miss my kids....and they are still here.
But, I miss them.
Can't it just stop for a while?
Slow down even........slow!