Tuesday, June 28, 2011

The challenges of blogging

Today...I am linking up with Mama's Losin It Blog, Writer's Workshop

Mama’s Losin’ It

I really did start blogging a million years ago....ok...not a million but back in 1999.

I don't believe there were blogs back then...I don't know but I did write...alot!

I started a website called One Womans Journey.  I loved it.

I would write about anything that was on my mind...which was the death of my 1st husband, the death of my son....and how I was going to live thru it.  Also, it was about Sophie, my daughter...who at the time...was my hero because she was the only one that kept me alive everyday.  Because there were days...I didn't think I would survive and many days I really tried to figure out how to make it stop.

I really would tell myself that Sophie would be better off without me because I was such a mess.  She was a baby....anyone would take her.  Then I would think about my husband, her dad.  I knew if I left.....no one would tell her how much I loved him.....how much he loved her....and just how much he loved me.  I knew that I had to stay here....to make sure she knew all of this.

She is 13 1/3 now and I am remarried and I have a 5 year old son.  I did survive....not unscathed tho but survived I did.  If you ever meet my daughter you will be amazed at how amazing she is...in spite of being raise by me.

So, I started blogging again really on Facebook 2 years ago.  I would type out every thought that came into my head on Facebook as a post.  I thought I was so very clever.  It took me a while to figure out that it was going to be really hard to get my posts back so that they were all together.


So, one of my Facebook friends started a blog and it was a light bulb for me!

What to write???  And a title??

I came up with this one...The days and nights of a very busy Mom.  It describes me.  I have children that are bad sleepers...they get it from me.  So, sometimes the nights are as busy as the days.

Sometimes tho....what do I write about?  I have found myself looking on blog suggestion websites for something to write about.  Never to find anything that interests me.

Usually I look at my day, my kids, my family....the loss of a shoe  LOL

I have started a blog one way and it ended up another and I had to change the title.

I do like lists.  These are very therapeutic for me...because I don't know where they are going to go but I always feel better when I am done.  Now, the having to come up with "a 50 summer bucket list" was hard!  I cheated a little but, I listed 50.  I read my daughter-in-laws and laughed when she didn't get to 50...so, did a lot of others.

To me....blogging is my own story.  My own personal therapist...with an audience.  A scrapbook of my daily life.  It tells me what happened, what my kids are up to, things that are currently annoying and I post photos too  :)  I write about the good, the bad and the stupid.

I wish I had a bigger audience but honestly...I write for me.  I print it out in book form and place it with my scrapbooks.  Maybe one day when I am gone...one of my kids will read it and say...wow, it's amazing we survived at all.....that woman was a wack job!  Or they will say.......She was a good Mom.  Or maybe they will never, ever read and that's ok too.  Because I do and today...you did.

And everyday I am glad I have a place to express myself, to see myself....and to laugh at the funny things that happen in life.

The other day I also started another blog.

I love to scrapbook....LOVE IT!

I am a storyteller and I teach scrapbooking.  So, while I am waiting for my next teaching job....I thought hey...why not teach online.

So, if you are interested....here it is.    How to scrap your life

Now that site....is a challenge.


lessonsfromthequeendom said...

I loved reading this. So glad I discovered you. :) I, too, wish I had a bigger audience and that I could touch and hear from more people. But that's ok, because I write for me.

CaJoh said...

Stopping by from Mama Kat's…

So glad that you found your medium to continue to write. I have been out of blogging for a while and am looking for new authors. Your life story sounds amazing and quite a positive perspective despite what has happened in the past.

Thank you for sharing,

JDaniel4's Mom said...

I think we all have desires to grow bigger and share our thoughts with more people.

K said...

You have a great blog! I'm so glad to have stopped over from Mama Kat's! I agree, blogging is therapeutic for me as well. It's that challenge of writing something and then sending it out there in the www that makes us exposed yet focused more on what we write and why.

Cam said...

great post - i'll leave here encouraged and inspired. thank you!

Oddyssey said...

Wonderful post! Made me cry a little, I'm so sorry for your losses that you had in the past. Glad you got through it. You're a strong woman. Love how your blog "came to be" and I'll check out your scrap blog too.

Returning the comment favor from Mama Kat's Workshop. Thanks for stopping by mine. Later!

Lisa said...

You have a full live so you have lots of adventures to share. Blogging is cheap therapy, what I like best is the "delete" option, because sometimes things have to be said but not remembered. It's part of being part of a bigger audience, called a family.

Jackie said...

Blogging is definitely very therapeutic. I write for myself as well and wish I had a bigger audience, but it's hard to come up with really great stuff to write about all the time.