It brings up the past....I wish I could have had what I am giving to my kids. That is a big one.
Who would I have turned out to be had I had this??
It's also makes me sad that Sophie's Dad is not here to see this. He would have been so proud!
|this is a terrible picture of David...but it always makes me smile. Christmas morning...we knew...we would NEVER have more kids. We were exhausted!|
|Her 1st day of Kindergarten. This is the girl I miss so much!|
OK....so, I let her make the decisions of what to take and how hard to go for her 1st year of high school. I just signed the papers after she did. I really don't want to stand in her way...just be a guiding light and source of information.
I hate feeling this way...and I know...Sophie hates it. She always has.
|Sophie when she is 3 years old at Ballet class|
Or maybe...I am the one that needs her hand held? Yep...that is probably it.
I need her to need me...and she has never really needed me. She was independent from the moment she was born....headstrong and out front. But then....she needed to be that or I would have smothered her....and she still does.
Sophie, Sophie......Sophie. I love you so and I promise I will always be ready with my hand...should you ever, ever need it. :)
Go...grow up. Just not too fast please. Go slowly...this is hard.