a list for March 16th

1. Where is this year going?
2. really?  middle of March!
3. I am tired and have been so busy.
4. Tomorrow is Honors Ceremony for Sophie.  
5. She has a 3.67 GPA...her favorite score!
6. Why?  She is weird!
7. I had a business call earlier
8. my tax guy
9. or was my tax guy
10. ok....girl  :)
11. asking when we were coming in.
12. we went somewhere else
13. but...we talked about many things.
14. She knows Lance from days gone by
15. and his kids  :)
16. and now our kids.
17. she said she was proud of me
18. for the strides I have made personally
19. and professionally
20. I am honored
21. I am still doing laundry...at 9:16pm
22. the jeans are very loud in the dryer
23. I got lots put together for retreat.
24. I am counting the minutes until I get to go
25. I never thought I would be saying that...
26. EVER!
27. It's the one thing I do
28. for me!
29. for a long time...I never thought about me
30. always everyone else.
31. then I lost me.
32. sadly...I lost me a couple of times!
33. I hope I never do again!
34. I treasure the time I spent at retreat.
35. Just fun
36. dancing, singing and music
37. art expression
38. not having to think about anyone else....just me
39. the only decisions I make are about scrapbooking photos
40. what color goes best?
41. What can I say about this picture
42. What is Debi doing now?
43. She cracks me up!
44. where is the chocolate
45. more coffee?
46. Its midnight...screw it...........
47. more coffee  :)
48. orange slices!  OMG!
49. whats everybody else doing?
50. Oh...the fun!
51. I am tired now.
52. Its been a very emotional week
53. and its only Wednesday night
54. gave ultimatum to my brother
55. call before 8pm, sober
56. or don't call at all
57. I stood up for myself.
58. I should have the night he called
59. but, there is no talking to a drunk
60. when I called him the next day
61. he was a chicken shit
62. he hung up on me
63. I called back and left a message.
64. that same day
65. I saw my uncle driving his motor home.
66. I tried to get his attention.
67. I miss him.
68. but, I know he can't talk to me.
69. I also saw my Aunt in WalMart
70. she looked at me
71. gave me the face, the look
72. then when I felt my heart break
73. she turned away
74. and pretended I wasn't there.
75. I wish I could say these things don't hurt
76. they do
77. more than I can say
78. I question......
79. did I do the right thing?
80. I know I did
81. I was molested for years by her second husband
82. during the HUGE blow out....I found out that she lied
83. she always knew about it
84. I knew her NOW husband was being inappropriate
85. I asked her many times to make him stop.
86. I asked him to stop
87. then I ignored it
88. and ignored it.
89. and it got worse
90. and I couldn't ignore it anymore
91. I told her to make it stop or I can't be around him
92. and my children can't either.
93. she said she knew he was getting bad
94. she said she would take care of it
95. she said I lied
96. she said I was crazy
97. she said to go away
98. she said THEY all knew I was a liar
99. about everything....my whole life
100. Moms....I am glad you only get one
101. I am going to go to bed